“In Hollywood, I’m obese. I’m considered a fat actress. I eat like a caveman. I’ll be the only actress who doesn’t have anorexia rumors! I’m never going to starve myself for a part. I’m invincible. I don’t want little girls to be like “Oh, I want to look like Katniss, so I’m going to skip dinner!” – Jennifer Lawrence
Meet my new heroine: Jennifer Lawrence.
For a while I couldn’t decide if I liked her or not. I wasn’t sure if she was awesome for being her own crazy self, or if she was just thirsty for attention; but when I saw this quote I admired her. These days it takes a lot of courage for an actress to say something this, whether she eventually succumbs to the pressure to be thin not. Perhaps she can say this because she is Jennifer Lawrence, but I really hope she is Jennifer Lawrence today because she stands up for what she believes.
I’ve been told I am someone who stands up for what I think is right, but when it comes to being thin, I get stung a lot and I back down quite easily. I don’t think I’m fat, but as soon as I say this I get the look that says (or people actually say), “are you serious?! You don’t think you’re fat?!” – and this is where I shut off and start feeling fat and ugly. Well now that I’m writing all this and no one is here to stop me, I’d like to say, yes, I don’t think I’m fat, I don’t think I’m stick-skinny, and those things are really quite different.
This is the first time I’ve missed the Sevens in years. I thought I’d be okay with it, and… I’M NOT. I’ve been secretly moping in my heart over the weekend.
Although I’m not doing it, there are definitely ways to make up for it. Apparently a lot of people don’t know this, but the whole tournament is aired live on TVB Pearl and the truth is you’d be watching a lot more rugby than you would at the stadium without all the distraction. To make it more fun, just get your mates together and play a drinking game as you watch your boring old flat TV:
Pick a team – when your team tries, drink; if the other team scores, drink twice
Drink when there’s a penalty
Drink when someone scores a conversion
Swap drinks (or rotate to the left/right) whenever there’s a scrum – down it
If you’re lucky enough to catch someone streak, everyone has to go outside and do the same (Work something out for the girls. Please don’t strip and run around drunk.)
Every time there’s a throw-in from the sideline, pick someone up and you both down your drinks
Every time your team wins, take a photo of your drunk faces and post it on Facebook/Instagram!
I think half of this is just PMS, but last night I got off from work pretty stressed out about not having enough jobs. That’s right, I don’t get roles handed to me on silver platters and I’m pretty broke.
This morning I woke up and saw an email from my mom telling me she doesn’t know what are the right things to say when I’m like that. I appreciate her love and advice, but also had to explain to her I’ve tried to do those things and why they don’t usually work. THAT depressed the crap out of me. I kind of had a bit of an emotional break down. Continue reading →