I have this friend who can be unbelievably annoying, rude, self-centered, stubborn, and as a person who gives off this vibe, shameless. I quite often ask myself why I’m friends with someone like this and it usually boils down to: I need and should be a bigger person than this; not because I’m great and amazing, but because I can be as – if not more – annoying, rude, selfish and stubborn. And shameless, yes.
I was going to tell you all about how he pushed my buttons, but I realized that the point is that I need to let go of all this and move on. This morning when I snapped back at this person I, for some reason thought, “It’s Christmas, I should forgive.” Of course, the actual realization only came when I remembered that Jesus died for my sins not so that I will forgive one petty offense, but so that I will be free from being unforgiving everyday of my life.
It’s holiday season and I’m on holiday! Woot woot!
I’ve been meaning to travel, and still planning to – I just haven’t left HK because it’s crazy high-season at the mo. I’m hoping to get out of here early January. Is it still going to be high season?
I was getting all psyched about going to Tokyo, but someone told me she knows two people who caught TB there (I know one of them), so perhaps it’s not such a great idea… but I want to go! Is that a big enough reason not to go? Or am I being completely stupid even thinking about it? Uh, oh Jae, if you’re reading this, take care… I know you’re in Tokyo.. hahaa..
ANYWAYSSSSSS… I don’t really know where else I want to go if not Tokyo. Taipei? I like Seoul, but I was only there a year ago and I was in Australia a few months back. Europe is pretty miserable in winter right?
WHERE OH WHERE TO GO?
I was also wondering if I should travel alone, but if I’m going to places with great food it’s probably more fun to go with friends!
I suck at this. I absolutely suck at this. I’m not a big fan of gift-giving. No nooo, I mean I hate giving gifts for the sake of it, but if I find something that would make a great gift, I’m all in. Let’s be honest, no one feels great giving gifts for the sake of it, unless you get off on people superficially thanking you for your superficial present.
I guess the real question is, why would you want to give something you don’t think is amazing? If you’re going to try to look like a great person, you’re probably doing everyone, including yourself, a much bigger person by being genuinely loving.
OF COURSE I’M SAYING THIS BECAUSE I CAN’T THINK OF WHAT TO GET MY FRIENDS!
I’d say I’m having trouble because I’m kind of broke, but I can’t say that because I still don’t have any idea. If I had more money in the bank I’d just be shopping for a gift so I don’t feel so bad, but it’d really just be one of those gifts that’s completely meaningless. Nevertheless – I should go do some shopping and get some inspiration.
Perhaps I have failed time and time again because I was fighting for the wrong things.
I looked at people around me who were motivated by fame and money, and I thought, if I want these things as bad as they do I’d be able to pay the price too. The truth is, when I used that as motivation, I just keep falling to the place where I think, “screw it, I can do without it”; then it makes me feel like some strange being who just doesn’t want anything very much at all. I thought, “everyone has some big goal/passion they’d give everything for, except for me.” It made me feel so strange about myself and about life, like I was just drifting through it with no particular purpose or drive. Continue reading →