Just kidding, I’m gonna brag about the free stuff I get.
I was sitting around (on a plane; and which I didn’t have to pay full fare for), and realized that I’m a well and true receiever of special treatments: free stuff, sponsors, discounts, even that occassional dose of friendliness in the form of a precious smile in this low-quality customer service city of Hong Kong. Okay, that may not be entirely true,but people here do seem permanently annoyed at you, themselves, and the world.
Getting back to my point, I’m also realizing that I get special treatment probably because my face is sometimes on TV. That also happens to make it extremely clear and obvious that I do not deserve any of this.
So there I sat, staring out at the clouds, determined to look like I’m drowning in my own thoughts when I’m actually trying strategically position my back towards the kid with those glorious-smelling feet next to me, and realized, “wow, so you’re one of those people now. ” Those people who look like they have all these special connections (in my case it’s a completely free gift of highly undeserved favor and blessing), and a small voice in my head asked, “so how does it feel?”
It’s true that I look like an idiot more often than not, but this time I actually can’t stand it.
Like most of the video bloggers out there, I made a video where I did a little bit of acting and editing. I honestly thought, “god job RP, you actually made an effort.” So I was editing editing editing, kind of looked through the thing and decided that it was pretty bad, but kept editing anyway. Then I looked at the final cut and wanted to tell the video-me to shut up. I didn’t want to throw it out right away, but it only made me feel worse when I watched it again.
So I’ve decided: no more acting in my video blogs – and yes, that does mean no video this week; and no, I don’t have a spare video to upload. Who do you think I am, some muppet (I don’t know, I was going to say ‘douche’, but I really don’t think I’m too much of a douche in this case; I thought ‘loser’, but calling myself that as if I don’t care makes me feel like one, so I stuck with what my British friends call me – muppet. I know, I don’t know) who just makes ‘spare videos’? Of course that’s the exact kind of control freak I am, but I’m also lazy so I don’t have anything to upload, and I’ll say it again:
It’s my blog so I get to do whatever I want.
…but I’m sorry.
So what do you guys think? Did I smoothly dodge the fact that I act for a living but hated my own video because I acted in it? I think it was done pretty well.
Sorry English-speaking folks, I dont even know what this thing is called in English so I’m just going with a Chinese title. It’s some Chinese thing (think along the lines of accupuncture) where they scrape your neck and shoulders (VERY stiff ones in my case) and it gets rid of the heat inside you. No, not the “it’s so hot im gonna die” kind of heat, the………….other kind of heat. Okay, i dont know and i dont really get it, but my neck has been hurting for so long and i trust my si-fu. I think i feel better.